should be able to finish up jessica this weekend and start my close up of silvia, a dear family friend.
been thinking a lot about rejection lately. i think it's one of my biggest fears and one of my life lessons.
when i glance back on my past i can see rejection has had a major impact on me, from my father to my ex-boyfriend to being an artist. as i am finishing up my artist statement and portfolio and about to enter the world of galleries again i know that rejection is just lurking around the corner.
so what does this tell me? i think it's telling me to strengthen even further my inner core of self worth and confidence as well as learning not to take anything personally. but the fact is, being rejected is painful. when it happens to me i go deep into self pity and blame (it must be my fault). once i can pull myself out of it, forgive myself, as well as the other, i take refuge in don miguels words from the four agreements "nothing others do is because of you. what others say and do is a projection of their own reality, their own dream. when you are immune to the opinions and actions of others, you won't be the victim of needless suffering."
then i allow all of it to change me.
confidence is the key...you have to be so rock solid confident that no person or thing can shake your inner core. i try to just let it wash over me and know that i am stronger and better off for it.